Sleepless nights

It's 4.30am, and its no secret that I am a lover of bed- no late nights or early mornings for me... Or there weren't until baby came along. Now I no longer have any concept of time and rarely know which day of the week it is. Babies don't care if its 4am or 4pm when they wet their nappies or cry for food. All they know is 'I need mum now!'
Feeding in the middle of the night can be quite a lonely experience but also can provide time to think clearly with none of the distractions of the day and gives me some quiet time with baby all to myself. I am exhausted beyond belief but when I'm so tired that I am ready to tear my hair out and go mental, all I have to do is look at this precious little one and remember that it won't be forever and to savour these moments whilst he is still tiny!
Hopefully he is done eating for the night now and I might finally get a little bit of sleep! Probably not, but here's hoping!!!

We had a baby!

I am very pleased to say that baby is finally here! :) My waters broke on Friday night and after a very long, tiring and quite stressful labour we welcomed a beautiful baby boy into the world on Monday morning. Weighing a teeny tiny 6lb2 our son has dark hair like his daddy and eyes that are getting bluer by the day. 

I may be biased because I am his Mummy but he is beautiful and we are both very happy.

Life with a newborn is brilliant, crazy and exhausting and despite reading all the books and websites I could get my hands on and attending countless antenatal classes nothing could have prepared me for motherhood. So far it is wonderfully rewarding, and an emotional rollercoaster of love and worry but I am loving it and wouldn't change him for the world.

<3 xxx

Moving on up..!

So, over a week later and still no sign of baby! My patience is wearing thinner by the day and my crankiness is increasing! I have, however, had something to take my mind off all the waiting....we have bought a house!

We put an offer in a few weeks ago and were waiting to hear back. We finally heard last week and so we have had a busy week of paperwork and sorting out solicitors to move forward to completion. It is all very exciting and I am so pleased. I have been getting excited about decorating and began crafting some new projects for our new home as well as spending hours creating pin boards of ideas for colour schemes. I am very grateful to have a new distraction aside from endlessly cleaning and rearranging the flat for baby's arrival. 

The new place is close to where we are now so its not a new start away from the friends we have made here which is good as I didn't want to uproot my whole life just as the baby arrives. It is also bigger-three bedrooms, which means we will finally have a place for family and friends to stay when they come to visit instead of the sofa. In addition we will have a garden which I am thrilled about, and I am sure the cat will be equally as chuffed to finally be allowed outside instead of staring longingly at the birds from the bedroom window!

xx

I am not a patient person!

It has been almost a year since my last post, in which ironically i swore to get back to blogging on a more regular basis. However, things did indeed get hectically busy and life just got in the way of any spare time to sit down and write. Now though, spare time seems to be something I have a lot of (far too much in fact!).

It has been a whirlwind of a year since my wedding in which I have moved house, changed jobs, got a kitten (called Beesley!) and had lots of things going on. The biggest news of all though is that I am pregnant! 9 months pregnant actually, and on maternity leave (not so patiently) waiting for baby to arrive (hence all that spare time!). 
We started trying almost as soon as we got back from Cuba but I didn't imagine that it would happen so fast so whilst this is very much a planned baby, it was definitely still a surprise. You hear so many stories all the time about people struggling to conceive and taking years to finally get the family they've always hoped of that it just did not cross my mind that we would get pregnant right away, but that is exactly what happened for us. I came off my pill in June and was pregnant by the end of August.

We had already decided that we would move from our North London flat further out of the city and south of the river. The burglary turned me into a very jumpy paranoid person and I just wasn't comfortable living there anymore, so we made the move to Kingston Upon Thames. Close enough to commute to central for work but far out enough that it feels a world away from the busy street of London. We have settled in really well since moving in July last year, and want to bring up our family here. In fact, we are hoping to buy a place of our own here very soon. 

Moving further out of the city meant I had to leave my bar job as it was too far to go for a minimum wage job everyday but I found another job here and made some great friends working there. I also was fortunate enough to get some more teaching work and have been busy building up my career. I absolutely love being a dance teacher and I am already so eager to get back to it that I have started planning my lessons for when I return to work in September. Many people have commented that it is very soon to be heading back to work after having a baby but dancing has always been my life and becoming a mother should not mean giving that part of myself up. This baby is going to usurp it as the thing my life revolves around but going back to work part time will give me some much needed time to focus on myself as a person meaning that when I am at home I can commit myself fully to being a mother.

Having such a physical job made me decide to take my maternity leave earlier than most. It was also easier to get cover for a whole term that to stop part way through and with the stress of exams and the annual show finished for another year I thought that stopping when we broke for Easter would give me the perfect opportunity for some much needed me-time and relaxation before baby's arrival. Which is has and i certainly appreciated it for the first few weeks. Now, with my due date looming and baby stubbornly refusing to put in an appearance I am starting to wish I had tried to make it until the May half term as cabin fever is beginning to set in at home. I am prepared and organised for this baby to almost obsessive levels of readiness. My hospital bag has been packed for weeks, the nursery is ready to go and I have finished the antenatal courses and books. 

I can't wait to face the challenges of motherhood and hold my tiny baby in my arms...So if you are listening little bean, please come out now because mummy is very bored! 
xx 
:) 

Back to the Blogging

It has been a long while since my last post. I could make hundreds of excuses for not writing but the simple answer is I couldn't be bothered. Harsh but true! I have been so busy that when I have had free time i have wanted to do nothing mor than lie in bed with a good book or the Mad Men box set (my latest TV obsession!) So I plan to now rectify the laziess of the last few months by getting back up to date. 

So i guess the first step is to update the dtails of my life these past months. The most major detail would be tha I am now married! wahoo. finally! It feels like I was planning my big day forever before it finally arrived, nd now that it's been and gone I want to do it all over again. There is a big gap where planning my wedding used to be. Luckily I plan to fill the void in my life with a new college course so I will soon be busy busy again! There's the honeymoon to Cuba to talk about too. That was the best holiday of my life so I think deserves a post all to itself (i'll save that for later!). There's been job changes too with more to come i the near future, and a change of living arangements coming up as we have found a new flat that we will move into in the next few weeks. 

So life has not become dull and although I have had a bit of the post-wedding blues, I'm certainly not short on things to do!

xxxxx

Burgled

My news this week is that we got burgled :( Our flat got broken into on Saturday night. We had friends round for dinner and some drinks and left the flat sometime after 7pm. My fiance's band had a gig so we went out early for sound check, went for a few drinks, watched the gig and were back by just after 11pm. We got home and I went straight into the kitchen-our plan was to get the rest of the bottle of wine we had started before we left and curl up on the sofa with a film. Needless to say that didn't happen! My partner went into the bedroom and immediately started shouting about what a mess it was in there, asking why I had felt the need to throw all my clothes around and get out the suitcases before we left....I hadn't. It took a good few minutes for the penny to drop that we had been broken into as there was no sign of damage to the front door-which was locked when we got home. We now believe that the robbers got into the building through an external window and carded our yale lock to gain entry before leaving by the front door!


We looked around to see what was missing and our worst fears were confirmed to note that the TV/DVD was gone along with both of our laptops, the xbox, and the ipad. They also emptied the contents of my handbag across the front room floor (i had left my bag at home and taken my purse and phone) and taken the bag, and pulled out all of our suitcase and taken mine-presumably to carry away all our things without attracting attention-basically they made it look as if they were guests or people going on holiday so that nobody from the flats below who saw them would question them.


It made me very angry to be stolen from but the worst thing for me wasn't the loss of our electrical items, it was the fact that some one had been in my house, in my personal space, touching my things. The items can be replaced and the locks and window have now been replaced but the knowledge that an intruder was in my home will stay with me for a very long time.

Album reveiw: Lana Del Rey - Born to die

Read my review of Lana Del Rey's album-Born to die for Propaganda Magazine:

http://thepropagandamag.com/reviews/album-reveiw-lana-del-rey-born-die