It is day two of my last week of being a student and I've got the fear! After four years of being a student over the last few weeks I have been eagerly counting down to this week but now that its here I am filled with dread! Sunday is the last performance of Godspell, our end of year musical, and I am anticipating it in much the same way as I suspect Anne Boleyn did the guillotine!
The 'real world' as it is known by us studenty types is a scary place to venture out into when you have been comfortably within the confines of structures education establishments for almost the entirety of your life. University is safe. You get the freedom of moving away from home with the comfort of a student loan to aid you financially and a ready made friendship group within your college. You also get staff on hand to guide and advise and peer group going through the same struggles as you, on hand with shoulder to cry on. Compared to this safety blanket of education, leaving college and getting a 'real job' is a terrifying prospect.
I am however looking forward to actually having an income. Student loans don't go very far in London with high rent prices, travel cards, and a generally higher cost of living. hopefully I will soon be earning enough money to a) survive, b) save, and c) have some extra cash for actually having a social life of some description.
This would be ideal as whilst I can survive and socialise on my current budget there is no margin for saving towards my impending wedding!!
The other big worry is 'What if I never see anyone again?' But after some consideration, there are a limited number of people that I would actively make an effort to keep in touch with myself. I guess this is another one of those points in your life when you realise who is truly a friend and who was just a passing acquaintance. It happened at the end of school, it happened when I moved away from Plymouth, and I am sure it will happen again now. However, real true friends will always be there no matter how little you see each other, and those are the friendships that really count. So it is a very silly worry to have!
The dread is accompanied by excitement, and you never know what life is going to throw at you next so you might as well just go with it and enjoy it while you can. So here is to my last week of student life! I will be making the most of it!
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